Better and better

I like circles because they are such an obvious reflection of how we experience our lives – from moment to moment, day to day, week to week, and then on to months, years, and even lifetimes if that is included in your personal belief system. As I go from one circle to the next, I am becoming increasingly aware that my basic structure doesn’t really change, I just get better and better at functioning within it.

For instance, right now the concept of Communication is really up for me. I am being challenged by how I communicate within my primary relationship, with my friends, and with myself. So to get a little more insight into the situation, I started to look at the Communication mandala that I completed several years ago. I remembered all too well why I put that dark wavy line in the center to represent that black place deep inside myself, the one that stops me from knowing what I really need to say and then saying it. And I was struck that the words I wrote at that time to describe the mandala could have been written yesterday.

“Once I find a new way of communicating with myself, I can then communicate so much more easily with others.”

That is still the way I plod through things today. How I am able to slowly transform that dark, confused core into an open and lighter place. The hope is that I can go through the process a little faster each time and truly transform some of those old, painful patterns into something new, creative, and fresh.

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It’s all about time and timing

Truth

It’s seems so common to talk about speaking truthfully and from the heart.  But these days I’m being reminded that I must first discover what is really true for me before I say it.  When I get it right, the words pour out.  I feel better and the results are so tangible that I can reach out and touch them.  But arriving at that kind of truth can be such a squiggly thing, so elusive and hard to hold on to.  And even harder to say out loud.  No wonder I spend so much time avoiding confrontation.

The other day I finally took some pictures of the Mandala Platters that I’ve been selling for almost a year. And I must admit that I was in a bit of a snit at that moment in time.  When I got to the one depicting Truth, I realized that it was just what I needed to see at that moment.  I was reminded of feelings that I had while I was working on it a couple of years ago, and was able to get more in touch with some of the fears that stop me from being true to myself.  Clarity returned.  I could breathe freely again. After that, it was was easy to find the right words.

How nice to know that these mandalas really work!!   Now to get them up on our website, perhaps a much more challenging proposition than discovering truth.